Nur noch einen Monat in den USA...

Hallo Leute,

In einem Monat ist es soweit, ich werde die USA verlassen und wieder nach Deutschland zurückkehren. Im Internet habe ich einen Brief/ einen Blogeintrag gefunden, der fast genau meine Gefühle widerspiegelt. Leider konnte ich nicht die genaue Quelle des Blogeintrages finden, aber ich würde es gerne teilen:

A year has passed and now we stand on the brink of a returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything and yet nothing being the same.

In one month we will reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say goodbye to people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to the people we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to, before we ever left. We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends.

We will go back to the places we came from and go back to the same things

we did last summer and every summer before.

We will come into town on that same familiar road, and although it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become.

You suddenly realize that things that were the most important to you a year ago, don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand.

Who will you call first?

What will you do your first weekend at home with your friends?

Where are you gonna work?

Who will be at the party on Saturday night?

What has everyone been up to in the past few months?

How long will be before you actually start missing people barging in without calling or knocking?

Then you start to realize how much things have changed, and you realize the hardest part of being an exchange student is to balance the two completely different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything while trying to figure out what you have left behind.

We now know the meaning of true friendship.

We know who we have kept in touch with over the past year and who we hold dearest to our hearts.

We've left our worlds to deal with the real world.

We've had our hearts broken, we've fallen in love, we've helped our best friends overcome eating disorders, depression, stress, and death.

We've lit candles at the grotto and we've stayed up all night on the phone just to talk to a friend in need.

There have been times when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when you know your family or friends needed you the most, and there have been times when we know we have made a difference.

One month from now we will leave.

One month from now we will take down our pictures and pack up our clothes.

No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end.

We will leave our friends whose random emails and phone calls brought us to laughter and tears this summer, and hopefully years to come.

We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

Two months from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families.

We will drive over to our best friends house to do nothing for hours on end.

We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us to laughter and tears over the year.

We will unpack old dreams and memories that have been put away for the past year.

In one month we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close.

And somehow, in some way find our place between these two worlds.

In one month.... Are you ready?

Hier sind noch meine eigenen Gedanken dazu:

Die Gefühle in mir im Moment sind ganz merkwürdig. Auf der einen Seite werde ich mich freuen, wieder in Deutschland zu sein und alle meine alten Freunde und meine "deutsche" Familie wieder zu sehen. Auf der anderen Seite werde ich meine amerikanischen Freunde und insbesondere meine Gastfamilie so sehr vermissen. Ich will jetzt noch gar nicht wirklich darüber nachdenken, sondern einfach die letzten Tage hier genießen. 

Bis bald,

eure Alexa